Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Ray Boltz
As a child I was very much inspired about my religous beliefs by listening to the wondrful voice of Ray Boltz. The way he softly spoke the word of God into his songs and made them easy for me to understand the "TRUE" meaning. I was very easily "awwhhed" by him time and time again. With each new song that he would come out with brought me so much joy in knowing that I was about to hear the next wonderful song that Ray Boltz has to offer. Now, I have lost all of those feelings. I know the first thing I must say is that I never judge ANYONE,EVER...I always give every better the opporunity to show me what they truly are. I have given Ray this opportunity my entire life. Also I know that his decisions and everyone's decisions for that matter are strictly how THEY choose to live their life. I will pray that God will show them the right way but that doesn't in any way make me have to agree with their life style. And on a lighter note I have had many family and friends come in and out of my life ALL of which I have loved deeply but I have had to take myself out of the situations in order to not judge them. I love them all but sometimes it is best to let go... When Ray Boltz came out of the closet I was SHOCKED, Beyond belief. I could not believe this man that I looked up to for so long has now become someone I never dreamed him to be. I was looking up songs on youtube today and I came across his new song. It is titled "Don't tell me who to love." At first I didn't give it much thought but as I listened I became a little aggrevated. I wont go into details about it but I was just amazed at how some people think that being in a byracial relationship is the same as being gay. I disagree it is totally different. They are not the same at all in my eyes. I feel that however you want to live you life is your decision but It just amazes me how some people want to look at things.I guess we are all different but I am just deeply saddened at the life that Ray has decided to live. STRICTLY MY OPINION..... LOL
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Peyton and her thoughts..
Well today Peyton spent the day with my mom (mamaw) they baked valentines day cookies and then took some out to Miranda and the boys. This is one of Peyton's favorite things to do with her mamaw. When I picked her up she was in a great mood and didn't seem to be in a bad mood. We got in the car and started driving home. Now let me just say that we have really tried to make Peyton understand being rude or hurting peoples feelings..... So with that being said.. She is in the back seat and says to me "Mom I wouldn't ever tell mamaw she was fat.", I said "well Peyton mamaw is not fat at all so you shouldn't tell her that anyway, plus we should always keep those kind of opinions to our self so because that is rude." She starts balling her eyes out....I was like WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU.....She kept saying, "I am sorry mommy, I am so sorry" I said,"what are you sorry about?" She said I am sorry that you are fat and I am sorry that I told you that you were fat, I just don't want you to be disappointed in me for saying that you you are fat." I really couldn't do nothing but laugh (to myself of course) I just told her that mommy is glad that she is honest with me and that I want her to always be honest with me but she doesn't need to tell people things that are going to hurt their feelings. She of course cried some more and apologized about a million times. I told her it was okay because I already knew I was fat but sometimes people don't like to be reminded. LOL...What a hoot she is...I called mom to ask her how the conversation went and she said she did the same thing to her to. My child is already so sensitive it almost scares me..So hopefully our little talk will help her to understand ....Here is hoping anyway....
Monday, February 9, 2009
My New Fear
Well this weekend I realized that I have a new fear. Yep that is right, not surprised I am sure. We decided on Saturday that we would take the pontoon to Lake Malone to just try it out (since its been fixed) and see how it runs. Well not only was it a bit chilly when your moving along on the water but it was a bit spooky since we were almost the only people out there. I got on the boat and didn't think much about it but then when we actually started moving something just hit me and I became terrified. When I say terrified I mean to the point of which my head was between my legs and I was sitting on the floor and at one point was crying. I am almost ashamed to admit that but the truth is what it is. Chad thought that I was a freakin nut. But I was so scared. You know the funny part is that I have been on boats before and it not effect me like that. I haven't been on them much but I have been on them none the less. So needless to say I will probably not be enjoying the boat this summer with the rest of the family. But that is okay I will find something else to do Like Scrapbook....Yeah maybe Jill can invite me over for some fun with her criket machine...LOL...Sounds lots of fun to me. Gosh what has happened to me over the years? I use to be able to do anything at least once. I would ride on anything land or water. Now I am even scared to drive to fast. I am such a wuss....Oh well I will be safe. Maybe If there was a big bubble around the pontoon then I would feel more comfortable. You know what else, Peyton loved it. She thought it was the greatest thing. And I kind of hated the fact that she liked it....But I just have to learn that my fears are not always going to be her's so I just have to let her enjoy herself with her daddy.
Here it hoping for a good week this week. I got Quick books 2009 today at work and it is like the Cadillac of Quick books so here is hoping that I get use to it quick. So far so good though.
Here are some pictures of Peyton and Tristan from this weekend.
Here it hoping for a good week this week. I got Quick books 2009 today at work and it is like the Cadillac of Quick books so here is hoping that I get use to it quick. So far so good though.
Here are some pictures of Peyton and Tristan from this weekend.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
My Prayer...
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace
I really need to start saying this on a daily basis...I get so upset about stuff EVERYDAY that I have no control over. I need to realize that God is the only one that can control my life. These last few days have just been so stressful for me emotionally for some reason. I have so many things going through my mind and I hate to not be able to fix all my problems or wants on my own.. I know that I have a wonderful life an family and I need to stop and think about the good in my life and not all the bad. I have homeowners coming in here everyday crying because they can not pay their bills and they are going to loose their electricity. I have some that have cancer,lupus,diabetes. They have so many doctors bills and stuff that they are at the end of their ropes. One lady came in today and told us that she is tired of the worries and had even though about suicide....WOW..I tried to explain to her that it is never that bad and that she needed to just relax and let us work with her like we have been for 2 years now. I am truly blessed, yes I struggle but not like some of these people are suffering. I pray that God is with them everyday and can help them to overcome their obstacles. He has always been the one to pick me up and give me hope I just pray that they are all letting him work in their lives.
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace
I really need to start saying this on a daily basis...I get so upset about stuff EVERYDAY that I have no control over. I need to realize that God is the only one that can control my life. These last few days have just been so stressful for me emotionally for some reason. I have so many things going through my mind and I hate to not be able to fix all my problems or wants on my own.. I know that I have a wonderful life an family and I need to stop and think about the good in my life and not all the bad. I have homeowners coming in here everyday crying because they can not pay their bills and they are going to loose their electricity. I have some that have cancer,lupus,diabetes. They have so many doctors bills and stuff that they are at the end of their ropes. One lady came in today and told us that she is tired of the worries and had even though about suicide....WOW..I tried to explain to her that it is never that bad and that she needed to just relax and let us work with her like we have been for 2 years now. I am truly blessed, yes I struggle but not like some of these people are suffering. I pray that God is with them everyday and can help them to overcome their obstacles. He has always been the one to pick me up and give me hope I just pray that they are all letting him work in their lives.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Me and all my weirdness.....
I just thought it would be fun to just post some random facts about me and maybe I could get everyone else to do the same. This is just a fun way to get to know me.
1. I am a mother to one beautiful little girl Peyton Leeann Bridges
2. I was born in Ashland, KY and moved to morgantown in 1992.
3. My mom and dad have been divorced since I was 2 yrs old.
4. My sister and I have the same birthday but we are 8 years apart, and apparently we look a lot a like.(I don't see it)lol
5. I have OCD....and was diagnosed with it 2 days before I found out I was preganant with Peyton.
6. I hate to hear people type on a key board in silence.
7. I hate the sound of someone changing the channel on the remote.
8. When I change channels I ALWAYS have to start with the first one (like channel 2)
9. I have a routine for EVERYTHING..
10. I count things...EVERYTHING...from cracks in the wall, to windows, to people.
11. When I was a kid I got a yellow crayon stuck in my nose... I was on my way to hospital when I finally blew it out..lol
12. I worry constantly about everything...
13. Peyton never stayed ANYWHERE without us until she was 2 years old and since then she has only been a way from us over night maybe 5 times.
14. I worry that my fathers health is worse than what I know because I am so far away from him.
15. My dad suffered 3 strokes when I was pregnant with Peyton and he has not been the same daddy since..
16. I have gone most of my married life without health insurance. And Peyton has gone most of her life without insurance as well..God has blessed us with Health
17. I have a BURNING desire to help people, I just often feel held back for some reason.
18. I think of Tiffany Taylor and Eric Young on a daily basis... They inspired me and left a HUGE mark on my heart that will never go away..I MISS THEM TERRIBLY
19. I am TERRIFIED of dying
20. I sing REALLY REALLY loud in the car.
21. Chad has had the hardest life of anybody I know and I am not sure how was able to as sane as he is.
22. I do not ENVY anybody...I often get angry because I couldn't do something someone else did but I know that there is a reason for that.
23. I cry VERY easily...I can hear a song on the radio and cry.
24. I LOVE MUSIC... I can remember several people and several events just by hearing certain songs.
25. I fear that I do not do enough in my life.
26. I have not seen or talked to my father's side of the family in probably 3+ years until I found two of my cousins on facebook last week.
27. I often feel like I am talking to strangers when I talk to my mom and dads side of the family.
28. I want to be close to ALL my family and Chad's family but I have to learn to just leave things alone.
29. I believe that my husband knows where he needs to be in his faith he just needs for someone besides me to lift him up and make him see.
30. I NEED to be a better Christian.
31. I 6 cell phones in 2008 and almost the same amount of vehicles to drive back and forth to work.
32. I love scrapbooking.
33. I have an obsession with collecting picture frames...I LOVE THEM...
34. I feel that everytime I go to a store I need to get Peyton something even if it's gum...hmmmm...Spoiled..
35. I worry about my sister on a daily basis.
Okay now it is your turn...I may just keep adding to this list....Hmmmmm..then everyone would know how weird I am .
1. I am a mother to one beautiful little girl Peyton Leeann Bridges
2. I was born in Ashland, KY and moved to morgantown in 1992.
3. My mom and dad have been divorced since I was 2 yrs old.
4. My sister and I have the same birthday but we are 8 years apart, and apparently we look a lot a like.(I don't see it)lol
5. I have OCD....and was diagnosed with it 2 days before I found out I was preganant with Peyton.
6. I hate to hear people type on a key board in silence.
7. I hate the sound of someone changing the channel on the remote.
8. When I change channels I ALWAYS have to start with the first one (like channel 2)
9. I have a routine for EVERYTHING..
10. I count things...EVERYTHING...from cracks in the wall, to windows, to people.
11. When I was a kid I got a yellow crayon stuck in my nose... I was on my way to hospital when I finally blew it out..lol
12. I worry constantly about everything...
13. Peyton never stayed ANYWHERE without us until she was 2 years old and since then she has only been a way from us over night maybe 5 times.
14. I worry that my fathers health is worse than what I know because I am so far away from him.
15. My dad suffered 3 strokes when I was pregnant with Peyton and he has not been the same daddy since..
16. I have gone most of my married life without health insurance. And Peyton has gone most of her life without insurance as well..God has blessed us with Health
17. I have a BURNING desire to help people, I just often feel held back for some reason.
18. I think of Tiffany Taylor and Eric Young on a daily basis... They inspired me and left a HUGE mark on my heart that will never go away..I MISS THEM TERRIBLY
19. I am TERRIFIED of dying
20. I sing REALLY REALLY loud in the car.
21. Chad has had the hardest life of anybody I know and I am not sure how was able to as sane as he is.
22. I do not ENVY anybody...I often get angry because I couldn't do something someone else did but I know that there is a reason for that.
23. I cry VERY easily...I can hear a song on the radio and cry.
24. I LOVE MUSIC... I can remember several people and several events just by hearing certain songs.
25. I fear that I do not do enough in my life.
26. I have not seen or talked to my father's side of the family in probably 3+ years until I found two of my cousins on facebook last week.
27. I often feel like I am talking to strangers when I talk to my mom and dads side of the family.
28. I want to be close to ALL my family and Chad's family but I have to learn to just leave things alone.
29. I believe that my husband knows where he needs to be in his faith he just needs for someone besides me to lift him up and make him see.
30. I NEED to be a better Christian.
31. I 6 cell phones in 2008 and almost the same amount of vehicles to drive back and forth to work.
32. I love scrapbooking.
33. I have an obsession with collecting picture frames...I LOVE THEM...
34. I feel that everytime I go to a store I need to get Peyton something even if it's gum...hmmmm...Spoiled..
35. I worry about my sister on a daily basis.
Okay now it is your turn...I may just keep adding to this list....Hmmmmm..then everyone would know how weird I am .
Braxton Bennett McClintock
Braxton was born February 1,2009 and weighed 7lbs 15.5oz and was 21.25 inches long. He is such a little cutie and perfect. His big brother Tristan loves him so much..He just can't stop kissing him. It is so cute..I think he will be a great big brother..
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