Judging

Although Peyton brings me more joy than anything I could have ever hoped for in my life, there are 5 other little ones who give me joy that is right up there with that. Sadly I do not get to see my nieces and nephews as often as I would like. But they are always in my heart. The other day I met Miranda, my mom and Braxtan at McDonald's in BG (after Braxtan's big accident)I had gotten this big dinosaur thing a long time ago for Tristan but I have not been to see him since I got it. I didn't want to send it to him via my mom or Ryan because I wanted to of course get the credit for getting it for him..The look on his face when I came walking in with that thing was priceless, He smiled real big and we pushed the buttons and made it roar and then Tristan would roar. It was great I love getting him stuff like that. He is at the right age to spoil rotten. Of course Braxtan just looked at it like it was a huge monster...lol..
I wish that my sister lived closer to me so that I could wrap my arms around Bayleigh everyday and her and Peyton could play there little hearts out. Since she has been old enough to crawl everytime she saw me her little eyes just light up and she has always reached her arms out to me. Now that she is older she runs full force and jumps into my arms usually after a lot of playing with Peyton she will crawl up into my lap and just snuggle me. She gives the greatest kisses, and hugs that a niece could possible give her aunt. No matter what I am wearing or how my hair looks or how fat I may look Bayleigh only sees me!! I know that she see's the joy I have for her and I know that she see the love that I have for her. My sister has struggled over the last few years with her since there has been some significant delays in her development. She has been in and out of specialist and Dr's most of her life. Now at almost 5 years old she will go on June 23rd to the children's hospital to confirm what her family doctor has finally chosen to admit that Bayleigh is autistic. There are so many different forms of autism and I know that Bayleigh is a lot different than some kids who never communicate or anything. I had never known a lot about autism until Krista called me to tell me of this new diagnosis. I have done a lot of research and found that it felt like they were sitting in the house watching Bayleigh's every move and documenting it for all to see. She had SO many characteristics of autism that it was amazing... I know this was a very scary thing for my sister to hear about her baby, but in some ways it was a relief. All the years of struggling and fighting for her at daycares and headstart was over with. Now she had something to go from and move forward with getting the right kind of aides to help Bayleigh be able to learn like everyone else.

I know so many people judge other people by the way they look or by how smart they are or are not, or by how big or small. I can't help but think about Bayleigh a precious little girl who struggles everyday to communicate with the other kids at her daycare or to communicate with the teachers who so often get frustrated at her and think it is so much easier to call my sister and tell her that Bayleigh is sick rather than help her to communicate and learn. But I also think back at how EVERYTIME she sees me no matter how I look or act or smell for that matter, she is always there with her arms open wide waiting for me to scoop her up into my arms and love her and hug her. If only the rest of the world could see through the eyes of an autistic child maybe we would all take into consideration the trials that they face on a daily basis. Sometime we as adults judge people to often and we look past the person that God created and only judge what we see on the inside. God created us all differently and one day he will be waiting for us with his arms opend wide and with out judging us on our apperance he will gladly except us into Heaven for us to dwell in the house of the Lord forever. We must not judge people so quickly because you never know what joy they will bring you when you look a little deeper.

I know that God does not give you anything more than you can handle and although at times my sister thinks she can handle no more God pulls her back and sits her back up and tells her to keep on loving and caring for Bayleigh as she has done for nearly 5 years. God has a plan for Bayleigh and when he has a plan, what could possibly go wrong?

I love all my nieces and nephews I mean look at those pictures, how could you not love those kids... They are GREAT!!!