Christmas Celebration......

This year we had a wonderful Christmas....Not that we don't every year but it was just so nice to be in our new addition to the house and have a big space to open gifts and Peyton got so much stuff I was almost sickened by it...She should not have to have another toy until next Christmas (yeah right lol). I was so proud of myself I had everything set up in the living room just th way I wanted it to capture Peyton running in their on Christmas morning. I had the video camera set up on the tripod and ready to roll. Christmas morning I went in there turned it on while Chad went to wake up Peyton. Now keep in mind when I was her age I was up every hour on the hour waiting until Robbie would let me out of the room so I could go see what Santa brought. So having to wake up Peyton every year is a little different for me...lol. I heard her little feet hit the floor and she was running full speed to the living room. When She got to the living room she screamed really loud and jumped on the couch and then jumped off the couch and onto the floor in front of the tree...She was so excited she didn't know what to think about all the stuff. I was so excited to watch her eyes light up. We had Christmas at our house Christmas morning then that afternoon Jeff and Chad's mom and kids came over and we did our christmas with them. It was nice and relaxing and I never felt rushed one bit. I was able to open all of Peyton's gifts and play with her. She got a cupcake maker to so you know I had a good time with that...My sister and the kids came down on Friday so we had christmas at my moms friday night and it was so enjoyable to see how excited the kids were. When I walked through the front door with all those gifts Tristan said "AA presents for me?" He was jumpin and clapping he is so cute. Bayleigh ripped thru her gifts and of coursed loved her baby dolls.Needless to say all the kids got SOOO much stuff and I was so thankful for a good Christmas. We had a few problems that we tend to have to over come each year but Chad and I are pretty use to that and after all we have been thru and overcome over our eight years together we were able to control this situation as well. I will leave it at that. Dust shoved under the rug.... When we were eating dinner Christmas night I asked Peyton if she knew what the real reason was for us celebrating, she looked at me a little a weird so I asked her if she knew who's birthday we were celebrating. She said "yea mom Alpha's" (alpha is Chad's mom's dog) I said HUH NO that is not right...So I went on to explain to her that Jesus was the real reason and if not for him we would not be celebrating. I hope that she keeps what I told her in her head and remembers that everyday. As a parent I know that I fail to tell her about Jesus like I know I should but she already knows all about him... So she thinks She tends to tell me stories... Well I hope you all Had a very Merry Christmas and I hope You all have A Happy New Year and stay safe....

MERRY CHRISTMAS

I just thought I would post some pictures of my visit to see my family in Ashland. I always love going there at Christmas time because we always walk (or drive depending on temperature) around the Central park which has over a million lights and I have video footage of my mom doing this with us when we were little so I thought Peyton would enjoy as much as I did...And it never gets old for me.It has been several years since I have been in Ashland during the holidays so I was very excited. Of course the last picture is a picture of my father...He can never take a normal picture but I guess that is where I get it from..... I hope you all have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS ....And May God Bless you in the New Year.

Just wanted to share

Thanks to Julia for posting these on to my facebook page... Aren't these just beautiful. Julia does such a great job on all her pictures and of course these are no exception. I can not wait to go to Heather and Laymonds and look them all of them.



These last few weeks have been really crazy. Chad was laid off last week and so Peyton is home with him for now which saves us on daycare but really messes up her schedule. But she is such a daddy's girl so she loves it. Chad has been keeping the house clean and cooking dinner so I have no complaints. He really is a great husband I have to give credit where credit is due....LOL... We stayed at Heather and Laymond's new house with them for their first night last Saturday and helped them move everything in and put things away. It was a lot of fun. Heather's mom is wonderful and brought us breakfast over the next morning. I am just really happy for them both they are well deserving...And I am more than happy to have them as our best friends. This week I stayed home yesterday due to the ice but I still worked on the laptop to get a lot of stuff done that needed to get done, so yesterday I sat on my couch and got it all caught up I was so glad. Then I even had time for us to clean the house and closets and all that fun winter stuff. Friday I am going to Ashland for the weekend I am really excited that we were able to pull this off this year it has been A LONG time since I was able to see my family in Ashland during the holidays so I am really excited to be with them this weekend. Well I have to get back to work I hope you all have a great weekend.

MEMORIES

I thought it would be fun to show some old pictures of me and the rest of the family many years ago... I will probably be killed for posting these but that is okay I enjoyed every bit of it..... LOL...I hope that you all enjoy it too..Some of these pictures are so old I dont even remember them... The one of Robbie and I standing in the front yard with me in my ballernia outfit is priceless...He was not happy at all.But the funny part is that Peyton wears my dance outfit now...It is so funny to see her in it..

LIFE

There has been so much going on the last week or so that I have just literally been in another world. The death of a wonderful family member and beloved Aunt to Lindsay and Cole has just been a complete shock for all of us. The thought of talking to someone one minute and burying them the next is just to hard for me to comprehend. When Tiffany passed away this February I ran through me like a thousand bees stingy my heart. There is never a day that goes by that I dont think about her. When Kelly passed away Friday it was like dealing with that all over again. I wanted to be close to my sister and to the kids but I know it wasnt possible at this time. Knowing the relationship that Lindsay and Cole had with Kelly since they were born is just hard to think about what they are thinking. When Krista asked Cole what he wanted for Christmas this year he said "My Kel Kel" Which is what the kids have always called her. I know that has you get older in life you lose people that are close to you but I just never wanted them to lose someone this close to them when they were so young especially. Lindsay is just is shock and I know that she will be for a while it is something that she will never forget and Kelly will always hold a HUGE place in her heart. Please just keep my family in your prayers. The days ahead are going to be hard to accept.

Last night Aleris had a meeting and they laid off 40 people. You guessed it Chad got laid off. They are saying until end of January or February but that is not a definite. It is hard around the holiday but then again we know that God has a plan for us. So we just have to keep that in mind. We have been through many a trying times and he has never left us a stray. As my boss told me last night "This didn't catch God by surprise." So I guess that is a good way to look at it. I think I have at least got most of my christmas shopping done so I dont have that to worry about. Anyway there is a lot going on so please keep us all in your prayers.

Prayer's needed.....

This morning my family in Ashland got news that my niece and nephew (Lindsay and Cole) Aunt was found dead at her home this morning. Kelly was a very wonderful person to all of my family and loved Lindsay and Cole as if they were her own. There is nothing that they ever wanted for. They were known as Kel Kel and Daddy Jerry to Lindsay and Cole. My sister and the rest of the family is in complete shock. Kelly has always been a wonderful person to me and the rest of the family. I can remember her coming and holding Peyton when she was first born and how excited she was about her. She is going to be sadly missed by a lot of people. Please remember my niece and nephew as well they are having a really hard time dealing with the loss.

Lots to discuss...

First of all I hope that everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving day and a wonderful weekend... My week was so full and by the end of the week I too was so full..lol. Wednesday we decided to do pot luck at work I am really glad that we did this. In the past it has just been George and I so this year to have such wonderful staff at the Restore we were all able to eat lots of food and celebrate together. I truly love them all and love my job... Then that night Chad wanted to take me to dinner for my birthday since he would be working. So me Chad, Peyton Heather and Laymond all went to Owensboro and ate at Olive Garden and of course they sang happy birthday and brought out a delicious cake.Peyton thought it was hilarious. Thursday was really calm for the first time in years. Thank God... We just went to Chad's mom's and she made a wonderful meal like always...And I ate way to much ...Like always. I put the tree up Thursday night and got all my nik naks out that I have been anxiously waiting to put out for a month now. I really love this time of year.Chad had to go back to work Friday night so he stayed up late thursday I went to sleep about 11 or so and my alarm went off at 3:45 am...I was ready to fight the rush of black Friday (even if I didn't know what I was getting myself into) I got to Racheal's house about 4:45 am and she was up and ready to go. I was so proud of her. We got to Walmart right at 5 am and I swear to you we almost had to park in the Chuck's liquor parking lot...LOL...I have never in my life seen the people.. This is the part that kills me though..As I was walking through the store really not looking for one particular item over another I realized how absolutly crazy people were over materialistic items....I mean seriously.. What has the world come to when an employee from I think NY walmart looses his life because the people outside broke down the front doors and trampled him to death....WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE THINKING!!! And the bad part is...People video taped the paramedics laying there trying to revive him while people just stepped over him and kept walking...Not only that but when the announced they would close the store due to the death people became iriate because they had been standing in line for hours and would not be able to get there items...SAD VERY VERY SAD...It is times like this that make me hate this time of year. It should never be about the items that you do or do not buy. I can only hope that I teach my child this in her life time. My heart goes out this family who lost there loved one because some people needed to get there flat screen tv's for cheap. Moving on....
Racheal and I had a great time.... I always enjoy our adventures out together even if they dont happen often.. We saw Tiffany and Damian (thanks Tiff for finding my cupcake maker for me ) we saw Sherry and Jamie, Alicia and Mandy, and Heather met up with us for a while and shopped a bit with us... I am glad I went it was actually fun and Racheal nor I had to go to jail so that is always good..LOL!!
friday evening was Thanksgiving dinner at my mom's. Since Chad had to work I made him a big plate and took it to him. We ate and got full again. And then had Ice cream cake for my bday and my momma got me a really pretty picture for behind my couch and a new purse..Thanks momma you are the greatest..We all visited for a while with Rob and Miranda and tristan, Ryan, Dale and mom. And we went home about 9:30pm. Saturday I vegged out and hung pictures up and cleaned up around the house. Sunday I did the exact same thing.. My sister called me at like 7am Sunday to wish me a happy birthday first..She always does that every year on our birthday. So next year on our bday I guess I will have to call her at midnight and tell her happy bday first before she calls me and tells me. I have always loved sharing birthday's with my much older sister LOL... I know it took her a while to except the fact of sharing a bday with me but I know she loves it now...LOL... Chad got me some wonderful smelling perfume and a months worth of tanning..I can't wait that is the most relaxing time ever for me.. Thanks Chad for a wonderful birthday week... I love you lots. Believe it or not I did not take one picture over the holidays..What is the matter with me ...I never do that. Well I hope everyone enjoyed their time off with their families..

Until next time ~

REMEMBER ME

This song brings me comfort...So many things I can say about how this song makes me feel.Ever since my friend Tiffany passed away I have found myself thinking so hard about a lot of things that I didn't really think of before. Tiffany was a wonderful person and always a happy joyous person to be around. During the last year or so of her life we were able to share some wonderful heartfelt conversations, I will never forget any of them. When I was down and depressed I would talk to her and even after all of her hurting and anger and sickness she was able to tell "ME" I would be okay. She was able to speak the word of God to me. I mean if you actually knew what all she was going through then you will know how difficult it was for her to even talk at times. But still she ALWAYS found the right words to say to me. But I just can't help but think everyday if I said the right things to her as a friend? Did I tell her how wonderful she actually was? Did she know how much she touched my life and so many others? I pray everyday that she is watching me and helping me in my days of confusion. I truly believe that somedays she is the one smacking me in the head and telling me to stop it...LOL.... She never hesitated any other time in telling me her opinion... I just really really miss her. I know it's to late but I would have loved to have seen her on thanksgiving and I would have loved to have gone to her house and sat and talked for hours about nothing at all. But I don't have that chance now and everyday I kick myself for letting each day pass by when she was still here. The phone calls and the emails just were not enough...Last night I was cleaning out my closet and ran across my wedding album (yes they are buried in my closet lol) and as I was looking through the pictures I saw her sitting in the crowd. It gave me comfort in knowing that she is still sitting in the crowd watching me, not only on that day but now she is watching me everyday...... REMEMEBER ME TIFFANY......I LOVE YOU ALWAYS....

I love this time of year

I took a few pictures of kash and Peyton this weekend just playing around..I just can't get enough of Kash he is so cute and cuddly...And he likes puking and pooping on me...But that's okay I love him just the same... Just wanted to share the pictures with you ....

SMILE AWARD ...YAY...

Thank you so much Tara for giving me this wonderful award... How cool this is why I love the Blog world more than myspace,facebook and all the others. I can get on here and write about whatever I want and people are actually interested in reading it..LOL it doesn't get much better than that...


I love reading Tara's blog and seeing all the phone moments she has with those adorable boys of her's. It's great to know that she and other's read mine as well...
THANKS SO MUCH FOR INCLUDING ME......
The qualifications to receive the award are:
A. Display a cheerful attitude.
B. Love one another.
C. Make mistakes.
D. Learn from others.
E. Be a positive contributor to the blog world.
F. Love life.
G. Love kids.

The Rules:
1. Must link it back to the creator
2. Post the rules
3. Choose 5 people to give it to
4. Recipients must fit the characteristics above
5. Create a post to share this
6. You must thank the winner
I had a very very hard time choosing winners, but here it goes.....
I chose 5 blogs also!!!

1.Laurie Keen (I love looking at her wonderful work)
2.Leslie West (she is starting her new photography and I love looking and keeping up with that adorable little one)
3.Sheena Sadler(we went to school together and I she always use to crack me up and I find myself laughing just as much at her blogs..she is a great writer)
4.Barkley and Gracie(this is my cousins dogs and they are so cute)
5.Jo Jason and Logan (this is also my cousins blog and my way of keeping in touch

Hope you all enjoy this fun little award...

LIBBY LU'S

We took Peyton to this little princess store in the Opry Mills mall yesterday called Libby Lu's It is the coolest, cutest store ever. Unfortunately it will be going out of business at the end of January 2009. Like a lot of stores in the Opry Mills (and other malls) are going out of buisness. This was right up Peyton's alley and I was very please with all she got and how she looked. For $20.00 she got her makeup done, hair done (which she got to choose the style), her nails done, a sash to go over her like a beauty queen, she got to pick her a prize which she choose the headset microphone,plus she got a goody bacg and 7 small items to put in her goody bag....ALL THAT!! It was well worth it. And she had a great time. Of course when we got back into town she had to go by her mammaw's (my mom's) and then her nanna's (Chad's mom). She was so proud and so were we she had a great time and I was so glad that we were able to do that with her. I love family outings, They are the BEST!!

MISSING THE YOUNGER KIDS

I found this picture of Peyton and Ryan on mom's computer tonight and I had to post it. Peyton loves her uncle Ryan (for some reason ha ha) and this proves that she always has. They have both changed so much. Time flies when you are having fun ...Just a glimpse of how cute they are... :)

Veterans Day

This day should be a day for all of us to really remember ALL the veterans. My husband is a veteran of the Army. I am so glad that I didn't have to go through some of the things that army wives have to encounter. I am very blessed and very proud of my husband and his duties to the United States Army. Though I will always yearn for that Army life I am thankful to not be in that situation. I could not imagine not having Chad home with me everynight. So here is to all of those young and old who have served our country with pride through out the years. And heres to all the young and old who died fighting for our Country. THEY ARE ALL MY HERO'S.

Missing my Friend.....

Sometimes life is just to hard to understand. My friend Tasha and I have been friends since about middle school I guess. There really was nothing that seperated us all through school. Everything I did she did and everything she did I did. We have so many great memories together. We have always been there for each other even when we were at odds with each other we always ended up talking again either by accident or because one of us would contact the other. It was always great for me to pick up the phone and hear her crazy voice on the other line.... Then there was the time she came to Chad's house our senior year of high school and told me she was leaving. We had actually been in an argument over something and then all of a sudden she is leaving and going to Texas. I was so heart broken. We talked for a minute and then she was gone.....To be honest with you I don't know how much time passed before we actually talked again. I was so sad and hurt that she was really leaving. That night was about 8 years ago. Then over time we got back in touch and we had both gotten married and moved away and then even though there was a lot of heart ache to overcome we were both pregnant at the same time. I can remember us talking on the phone about how we felt and we both just wanted to be closer for each other. Then I got the call from Calvin that Devun was born as I hung up the phone I just cried.... I wanted to be there with her and I wanted to hug her and Devun. But most of all I wanted her to know that I was still there for her, I wanted her to feel our true friendship was never ending.... She finally got to come home when Devun was almost a year old....She was here for about a year and we had so much fun with the kids being together everyday and laying in the bed at night talking about old times. Devun calling Chad daddy and Devun walking for the first time... Those are all memories I will never forget. Now our babies are in school and getting ready to be in school and we are once again wishing we were closer..... So mant things we want to share with each other are hard to share over the phone or internet. Sometimes life just really isn't fair I want her to be home so bad It hurts. I often think about how it use to be and I wish for it to be like that again. There have been so many sad times in my life that I would have done anything for a hug from her and for her to just make me laugh when I was depressed. I just miss her and when I know she is hurting it makes it hard on me to not be with her. I pray that God will answer all her prayer and all my prayers and I hope that one day soon I will get to see her again....

I MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH NATASHA NICOLE

Love you lots

Look what I found

WOW.....How time has passed by so fast. I can not believe that my baby girl is going to be starting school next year. Where has time gone??? I remember her crawling around and riding on the sweeper and me holding her and rocking her to get her to sleep. Those are memories I will cherish forever. I remember thinking about her growing up when she was a baby and now here I am thinking about her being a baby. I know that we will make more wonderful memories everyday but the ones of me being able to hold her will always be my special memories.... Here is Peyton when she was a baby...Isn't that hilarious..... bold as she could be too.. LOL

I have been tagged....

What a cute little idea.... Thanks Tara for the tag. I always enjoy this kind of stuff. Finding the picture may be interesting for me



This is a picture of Ashlee Kash Hampton. Isn't he just the cutest little thing... I will now have to post some more since he has grown so fast...

THIS IS ME

So when do things get better???? I know that sometime I tend to be a bit over dramatic and I tend to let things bother me that I shouldn't but that is me.That is who I have always been and guess what that is who I will always be. I get depressed and sad over things that I truly can not change. I worry about things that are way out of my control. I know that God is the only one that can help me with these problems of mine but anymore I am just not so sure I know how to talk to him about my problems. I have gotten out of church and that plays a big role in how I feel but I just haven't found that one church that I feel that I fit in. I know with out a doubt that church is where my family needs to be. And I am ashamed to admit that I am letting the Devil into our life. The bad part is, is that I know this....You would think that I wouls try everything I could to fix this problem but to be honest with you I am SOOOO freakin tired of fixing all the problems...I yearn for something more in my life. I know that God has put me here for a reason and I have still yet to find the reason. I have anger inside me, I have saddness inside me, I have hurt inside, I have love inside me, I have so much inside me and sometimes more bad than good. That is not me, I am not a bad person and I don't care WHO thinks I am. I know that I mean well I know that I try to live each day to the fullest. I don't want to wake up in the morning regretting the night before. I want those days of pain and hurt and anger to be over I want MORE out of my life. Sometimes I just want to sell my house and all my stuff and start over somewhere else. And I am not talking about down the road. I want to go FAR AWAY. I want to run as fast as I can run and never look back.....You know what else is bad .....I am not sure if I even want to have another kid anymore. I am even losing that part of me.....What is wrong with me??? I love kids. I love having Peyton in my life she is my everything to me ....But I guess maybe I just want HER to be my everything, I don't want her to have to share me with anyone else. I hurt for Chad and his family. I hurt so bad for them sometimes I can only cry....I pray for him to not be so bitter and I pray that God will touch him and show him that he needs to use his God given talk to praise God....That is what he loves to do so I pray that God speaks to him and brings him back to what he needs to be doing.... So much has changed and We all Know that I do not like change. I hate crying all the way to work every morning. It makes the whole day horrible and I hate feeling that at any time of the day I will lose it again.

PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR ME AND MY FAMILY!!

Hurt turns to ANGER

Ever since the daycare gave word that they were closing their doors I have been in another world. I have been so hurt and speechless. But this morning it just turned to ANGER.... I hate that now I have to drop Peyton off to an unfamiliar place and I have to leave her crying for me. I mean why should I have to see that and why should she feel so alone. It literally breaks my heart. I get into my car and just cry all the way to work. Peyton is 5 we should be over this stump, granted she is a bit of a drama queen but I know she just doesnt know how to react to such a different atmosphere. I know that Peyton is having fun with all day now but it still just makes me ill. Maybe if things were done differently then the old daycare would still be open. I am not here to point fingers I am just angry at the WHOLE thing. But I guess I just have to deal with it there is no going back now. But now I have to think about having another child and dealing with the same issues...

Oh well for now all I can do is make it through each day....Sounds like I am wishing my whole life away one day at a time.

Pictures from the SMITH Wedding

Here are a few of my favorite pictures from the wedding. It was gorgeous and we were so glad that we got to be a part of their special day.