DAY 5

So it is day 5 without power..And I am SOOOO ready to go home. I am so thankful that Jeff has been able to let us stay with him but I just want my home back. We have been driving to the house everyday to check on things and to see if the power is back on. Today it was 38 degrees in there. That is really really cold. It just seems so weird walking into my house and it being so cold. On Tuesday morning when the power went out Peyton woke us up crying cause she could find us, Chad got the flash light and opened the front door and the sounds that I heard were so crazy. It sounded like gun shots going off and it was just spooky. We went back in and bundled up and hung out there until about noon until we couldn't take it no more. So we have been without power since Tuesday morning. I am praying each day for power but not getting my hopes up. I know that they are all working as fast as possible to get everyone's power on so I will just be patient... I am going to church in the morning I may not look the greatest but I will be there then of course I have to watch the super bowl.. :) so two good things to look forward to...

Filling in the missing pieces !

I have been missing some pieces to my puzzle of life. I have known this for a long time and can honestly say that I think I have found a few of my missing pieces. I have been struggling with my church life.. you know the ones "I don't want to go to church today, I ll go next week?" Well I have been telling myself that for a good two years...YES TWO years.It is sad for me to admit that but so true. I have been lost. I know that some of you know the true me and know some of my inner thoughts of "life" but I have always felt that God has me here for something big...I know that he has a plan for all of us, so I don't want to sound like I he has better plans for me than for all of you but I have just always had a pull on my heart from him. Telling me to be the person that gives that extra hand to people in their time of need. I look at people not by there appearance,color of their skin, their last name, or by what they are wearing. But I look at people as just that PEOPLE...We are ALL worthy of God's love and he loved us all the same. I have NEVER in my life felt that I was better than anybody. I have actually been hurt time and time again by the people that I care for the most but I continued to let them in my life because I knew that I still needed to love them. I don't have to answer for the wrong that other people do. I just have to answer for the wrong that I do in my life. And if I am turning people away because of their wrong doings then I need to relook at the situation. DOn't get me wrong I have (just in the past year) been able to pull myself out of situations that I do not need be involved in anymore. But I would be more than willing to let anybody into my life. I have a big heart. Okay, back to my missing pieces.... :)
I have been battling with finding the church that is "perfect" for ME, but in my search over the last couple years I have learned that there is NO perfect church. I was going into churches and picking out the likes and dislikes and letting that be a playing factor as to why I did or didn't want to go back....Even to the point at one church saying to myself that "the bathroom was in an akward place". SERIOUSLY, who does that? At the end of my searches I found each week leading me to heart ache and pain of not finding my missing piece. There were days that I would come to work and just ask my boss to pray for me to find the right place for me. I would talk to Chad about it and I know where my husband wants to be...He wants to be singing for the Lord. That is his way of praise and worship and we have a lot to praise God for.
Last Sunday I battled with a few churches in my head of ones to go to..All weekend I talked to Chad and he didn't really have much say in the matter. Dee Dee had invited me to her church on several occasions and I still plan on getting there I would love to see how wonderful that new church is. But I kept bringing myself my back to Belmont. I told Chad on Saturday, "I am going to Belmont in the morning, I will wake you if you want to go." And I just left it at that. We ended up staying up really late Saturday night playing games and watching movies, so when my alarm went off I was completely set on sleeping in. I hit snooze a few times and then it hit me...I could not go back to sleep to save my life....So I got up and got ready and woke Chad and Peyton and we all got ready and headed out the door. I was glad that I got myself up and went. We got to church about ten to fifteen minutes early so we found a seat ..Same place we had always set. A lot of people came to us and hugged us and were glad to see us back. As the music started playing and the songs started playing I felt this overwhelming pull at my heart. I literally was even shaking a little bit (just like I was cold) and I knew that right then GOD was placing my missing piece into it's spot. I had found what I had been looking for. There was not one thing that could have kept me from wanting to come to that church. I felt like a thousand ton of bricks were being lifted off of my shoulders and I felt that God was literally shaking me trying to tell me that this is where he had wanted me to be. There is really not even enough words or emotion to truly express how I felt at that very moment. I am sooooo thankful that he woke me up and wouldn't let me go back to sleep that morning. I can only hope that by this being a part of our lives again we will move forward with our lives. We have so much to praise him for and we also have so much for him to help us through. But I know one thing...I will not leave this piece behind EVER AGAIN... IT WAS RIGHT THERE THE WHOLE TIME I JUST NEEDED TO GRAB IT AND PUT IT BACK IN PLACE....
~UNTIL NEXT TIME~

Here is hoping for tomorrow

Today has been a really bad day...It all started when I woke up late. I didn't sleep well at all last night so no wonder I couldn't get up. I was so tired this morning I couldn't even stand it. I get to work and spend basically the first two hours just trying to get my computer to run right. It is so ate up with viruses it has just about had it. With us being non profit It is really hard to just go out and buy a new computer so I just suck it up and do what I can and what I can't do I usually bring home to finish. It is just much easier that way. Then my sister calls me at work today all upset over some of family issues, which then got me all tore up and while trying to calm her down enough to where she could at least talk to me I begin to get all upset. Then I have a few more issues with things at work. I then have to leave early to go get Peyton because Chad was gone and his mom had to go to the doctor. So on the way home I was just ZONED out. I decided to go by the Middle School to see mom and talk with her. Once I got there I ended up talking to Miriam Taylor for a long time and it was really just relaxing to talk about Tiffany and be able to remember her with her mom. Gosh I really just miss her so much sometimes it is so hard for me to control my feelings on it. I just sometimes don't know how to feel. I am going to have to go see the scrap book that she has been working on. I saw a lot of a few months back but she has added so much more to it. She said she wants to be able to finish it but a part of her is not ready to close that part of Tiffany's life. I guess that is really hard to do. I mean when you are done looking at the pictures and putting them all in order what is left after that? I just wish she was here. I could really use some good conversations. I went to moms for a little bit after that and now I am at home. I am thinking that since it so quiet I may just got lay in Peyton's bed with her while we watch t.v. the rest of the night. There is not much else I want to do this evening.

I have to say a BIG CONGRATS to SHERA for making it to Hollywood I (like so many others) am proud of her and she has such a wonderful voice I hope she makes it real far. I will continue to watch ~ even if the judges are rude to KY people who say "be careful" I mean seriously that poor guy didn't mean anything by that. That was the first official time I have ever really been mad at Idol. I guess if they were real people like the rest of us they wouldn't have to worry about feeling threatened...

Until Next

IN A RUT ....

I just seem to be in a rut this week...I try really hard to make myself smile and be happy but I think it is the cold temperatures that is bringing me down. I am starting to worry about stuff that I have no reason to worry about. And it is really stressing me out. I just really need to learn to chill out and stop stressing out over stuff I have no control over. I have a wonderful family, a healthy child and a great job. What more could I possibly need in life. I know one thing is sure that I will be attending church some place this Sunday I am not sure where at exactly yet but I want to try something different that gives me the boost that I need and that allows me to worship in the ways that I feel lead to worship. Our family needs this and I am determined to get this major part of our lives back with the program. God has always lead us in the right direction and I need to stop steering away from him. I know that this will help me out on a daily basis as well. Please keep us in your prayers we still have no news on Aleris probably not looking good but we are praying that they call back soon and we can continue on like we were.

~Until Next Time~

"ONLY TUESDAY"

Well it's only Tuesday and I am already thinking about the weekend...I hate doing that to myself but I think I just want to crawl in my bed and sleep the days away. But I quickly snap back into reality and realize that I can not so I carry on about my days. I first want to say a BIG CONGRATULATIONS to DeeDee and Jeremy Overton they will be expecting their first bundle of joy in September I do believe. I know that DD is very excited (as I am sure Jeremy is too) and since she and I grew up together I am excited to be able to see her in this next chapter in her life. It is so exciting. I wish I was having another one but when the time is right I will be able to. Again I am soooo very happy for them.
I got to go to the doctor with Miranda today to watch Tristan while she went back for her visit. I of course brought him goodies so he wouldn't cry when she went back and that worked out great..He loves Dinosaurs so we played with those and ate ring pops.. He is so cute and I just love to spend time with him. We dont get to do it very often and I hate it. But I think since I brought him goodies this time he will be wanting me to come each visit..LOL..which is fine with me. Miranda was good her blood pressure was a little high but he is head down and she was about a finger tip. They originally said her due date was February 22nd then the 15th, then the 8th.But now they are saying the 15th or maybe 8th still so who knows but she is ready to get him here. For those who don't know his name it will be Braxton Bennett McClintock...I loved it he is going to be a perfect little boy like Tristan and I can not wait to meet him.. That is about all the news I have for now. I hope each of you have a wonderful week.

~Until Next Time~

Just some talk

Well thanks to Tara for sharing her information on her new blog I was able to find a cute new background for my blog as I am sure you can see. I love tinkering with that kind of stuff.

We have been working on Peyton's bedroom this week. We decided to move her room to the spare bedroom so that she will have a window. When we added on to the house we had to cover her window, we were going to put a door there but it didnt work out so it is just a dark room..So we took bunkbeds apart and she said she wanted a pink room so what my baby wants my baby gets..so pink it is..but it looks really cute so I am happy we did it. Just taking the bunkbeds apart made so much more room. Now I have to get the "New" spare bedroom back in order... ARRGGH... We finally sold the total gym so we got paid to drive it to St louis saturday so that is what we are going to do. I am ok with a little road trip so why not. I am just glad to get rid of it. Plus with the money we sold it for Chad can get his truck fixed and start driving it again. That is really about all that has been happening this week. I am getting a lot of stuff done at work this week so that is good. Enjoy the weekend..